1) While I do have the TV on at our house a lot during the day, I don’t like to just sit and watch it. I have a tolerance to do that for MAYBE 1 hour long show. Then I’d rather find something else to do while having the TV on as noise. Spencer really doesn’t provide enough background noise to not have it on, plus it slows that boy down every now and again.

2) I treated myself to lunch at Taco Bueno, and noticed while I was sitting there how content I felt. I was reflecting on my life and things I would do different or like to change (and there are always things to change and fix), but I realized that I do love life at a mom and I am excited to see how life as a stay at home mom changes as my kids get older.

So, while I was in a weird funk to start the day, I am feeling quiet good about life and what the future (immediate and distant) holds.

Question: Spring
What’s blossoming?

Not only are the flowers blooming (yes, I did plant flowers!! If you know my track record with gardening and such, you’d be amazed too), but I feel like I am doing well too. I feel like I am growing a person, a wife and mother.

Since my surgery, I feel like I have developed a great sense of sympathy and sometimes empathy. I’ve really been working on being more supportive and attentive to my husband as he goes through things, and I feel like I’ve had some success.

We’ve been doing a 30 games in 45 day challenge together. We’re almost done, and I feel like we’ve grown closer as couple. And I’ve grown to appreciate him more as I spend more time not just watching movies or playing video games. We’ve also planned a couple of vacations (family and couple), and I’m not just excited for them, but I can hardly wait since I get to spend so much time with him.

I am trying to be a better mom to my darling baby boy, and I’m not having AS much success with that one as I would like. I am making an effort to take him to the park everyday, and do things with him that he likes to do. He has been wanting to spend more time with me as a result.

I am also going to make an effort to help him learn more. We are going to practice numbers and letters now. I just have to make the cards and laminate them. He and I are also going to decorate his playroom. He is going help me choose what he wants on the walls, and I’m excited about it too.

Personally, I am doing quite well with my scripture study, and I am doing great with my perseverance through the Book of Mormon. I haven’t read it through in one long stretch, but it largish chucks. So, I feel like I am making progress.

That’s what is blooming this spring.

Prompt: 3 words
What three words would describe you right now?

I thought this would be an easy one, but it’s really not. As I’ve been thinking about words that describe me right now, and they are not words I am happy about. So, I’m not going to share, but I am going to write about what words I WANT to describe me and how I’m going to get to that word from where I am now.

Spiritual – I am not as focused I as should be on my spirituality. So, the things I know I need to change are my scripture study habits. They feel apart after my surgery. I also need to change the attitude of my personal prayers. Currently they seem like more of an after thought than the point, and I often find my mind wandering. So, I am going to be working on Personal Progress Faith 1 that will help me create a pattern of prayer.

I am also going to attend the temple at least once a month starting tonight.

Healthy – I feel like I have actually come a long way in this category. I am eating a little bit better, and I am eating less. I am really ready to begin exercising to get my body into a good shape. I want to be able to keep up with Spencer, and possibly be ready for the next one.

I am going to try to walk for 30 minutes at least 3 times a week.

Maternal – I am very much this, but sometimes I feel less than maternal. I feel like I can be very selfish with my time, and I tend to turn on the TV too much so I can “have a minute for myself.” I just need to plan better activities for Spencer and I to do together. And not just winging it like we have been lately. That’s the plan. To plan an activity for us to do every day, AM and PM.

It’s not that my friends husband’s are bad men and they have bad relationships.  It’s quite contray.   They have loving husbands too, but I could NEVER live with some of those types of relationships.  Just some of the things that don’t really matter to my friends, would REALLY bother me.

I am so grateful for my husband who gives me the love and support I need in all the right places.  While I know that he isn’t perfect, I do know that he is perfect for me.  Thank you for all you do.  I love you, Adam!

This week has really just been like that.  I can’t STAND a whinny crying kid, especially when I know he’s just doing it to get attention.  I don’t know what to do about it.  I felt bad for him when he was sick, and he learned that he could get attention.  But he’s been getting up from his naps in a foul mood, and as result Mommy gets put in a terrible mood and I just want to shake him!

I would like to ignore the behavior and not reward it, but his G. G’ma will give him what he’s looking for so it won’t work.  So, I’m stuck in this weird place feeling like the worst mom in the world because I want NOTHING to do with Spencer while he’s acting this way.  I guess I can sort it out once life gets back to normal…  still doesn’t help me today, but oh well…